the monster within

It's dark, and she's in the woods alone with only the clothes on her back. She's afraid because of the crunching of the fallen leaves coming from behind her. She beegins to run. What is behine her will prove to be the most horrid thing she will see. It's chasing her to take her to the dark shallow depths on her mind. In time she will awaken and she will see she was just dreaming, so she thought, but she was wrong. Her dream was very real. There is no escaping this montser that holds her soul with such a tight grip. She see's the face over and over but is blind to the truth. Her family has all been killed by the monster and she fears it knows she got away. To kill the monster she ran in her once home and shot the gun in her old top drawer. Cops arrived on the scene to find her cold, dead, bloody corpse on the ground with a mirror in her hand and a smile upon her face.

Time

Time passes by slowly
but yet it feels so quick
for your parents it flys by
watching us grow
but for us it drags on and on
time doesn't stop or wait for people to catch up
it just keeps going
you'll never know when it will stop
and you won't live to see it stop
none of us are immortal
we all have an hour glass with father time
it just waits to run out to stop our time
time will take it's toll on our souls
but the question is
when will your time run out

Broken Hearts, Stonger Promises

I miss you
When you could move
ever since you got sick we began to drift apart
you feel gone even though you are close
depression mine as well of taken over at this point
it swells inside me like a volcano getting ready to errupt
my tears
they drip down my face as if it had been pouring for hours
its hard to accept that you wont get better
only worse
things haven't changed much though
you still push yourself
you hide everything under a thick blanket
but I can still see
what is worse is I know what is coming
you can't hold on forever
and I cant make you
your silence speaks a thousand words
hopefully you'll understand my choices long ago
all those fights
i hope you earased them
I dont want you to have bitter memories before your gone
I know you can't come back once your gone
like the leaves on the tress do when warm beautiful spring arrives
after having winters cold blanket of snow upon us
I can't help but ask every night before i go to sleep
and the words will slip out with a tear waiting to race down my face when the answer i recieve is no
will you be there in the morning

Our Freedom

I wonder,
did you think,
just for a second
about our world
and how its full of lying, dying, and crying
It's hard to believe we are free
But really what are we free from
I don't feel free
Define free for me
Isn't freedom an opinion
You have to feel free to be free
So many of us are trapped
with no way out
People are so pour they are joining the army just to live
even though they know their lives are at risk
What has this world come too
murder, robberies, wars
we aren't safe or free
at least not the way i think or see
children have been desensitized by the lies of the world
what used to be a so called free land
is now gone
at least thats how it seems

Sweet Misery

You make me wonder,
wonder about this life and if it's worth living.
You shut me out of everything.
I just want to help,
help with anything.
I've thought of leaving,
leaving this world
because it mine as well be hell.
The constant fights,
lonely nights,
feeling dread everyday i wake up.
I miss you,
not you know,
the old you i remember,
who was always there,
and always aware,
aware of what you had,
like friends.
But ever since she left you,
you wont talk to me.
You say no one can love you like her,
but to be honest,
I've loved you forever.
So when you read this you know
how far a true love will go
to wake you up from this slumber.
I'll love you know and forever.

Forever

I gaze upon the stars that are twinkling in your eyes,

you always know and can see through my disguise.

I want to feel your warm embrace,

and your warm, soft lips pressed against my face.

Your hands which sooth my fragile soul,

your love is what keeps my once broken heart hole.

I couldn't go a day without your words.

The three words that make amends for my mind,

you say those words so softly and kind.

You are and always will be my guilty pleasure, 

i wish to keep you as mine forever.

A once fragile, lonely, lost girl,

has been fixed and freed to join you in your world.

The passion between us is one to tell them all.

With you by my side I know I will never fall.

You're all I could ask for in a man,

my boyfriend, but also my closest friend.

You mean the world, the stars, everything to me.

Please change this last name and marry me.

I love you is all I need to hear.

I know this is true love, forever my dear.

my minnie mouse blanket

     Pink and black for a young baby girl on her way. My "blanky," was given to me on the day i was born by my mother. I held my Minnie mouse blanket tight at night because it was mine. It was my first blanket that would go everywhere with me for the first two years of my life.
           Every night my mom would give me my blanket to sleep with because without it, I couldn't and wouldn't sleep. When I was finally old enough to remember my mom told me to keep my blanket and pass it down to my daughter or grand-daughter to keep the blanket in the womens generation for years to come. I really hope when I am a mother my daughter, if I have a girl, will come to love her Minnie mouse blanket as much as I did when it was mine.